The breath of relief. I had the amazing news last week that my tumour has shrunk. Incredible given that I’ve only had 2 cycles of chemo so far. I felt physically lighter when I got out of the appointment, finally able to breathe. What I didn’t feel unfortunately though, was jubilation and that in itself […]
It’s been 9 days since I last wrote. 14 days since my scan and only 1 week since my life has been once more flipped upside down. In that tiny blip of time I’m back to being a cancer patient and have already started my first cycle of chemotherapy. It’s hard, almost impossible to describe […]
A tailspin of emotions. Scared mainly but with a big dose of overwhelm, numbness, and frantic overthinking for good measure. I can’t function properly, forget in an instant something I know I shouldn’t, lose myself in replaying the words and facial expressions, scrutinising anything I might have missed. I go back and forth and back […]
Finding a definition that portrays the meaning of the word ‘hope’ to cancer patients is impossible. I’ve searched every dictionary due to my fascination of its importance and nothing depicts it accurately enough. One day however, through the enlightening online course ‘Deepening Into Life with Donna Lancaster’, we were tasked with reading ‘The Book of […]
6 weeks, 30 days, 28 different friends and family, 6 machine breakdowns, 1 Aessai blanket of love, 1 pair of personalised Love Specs, 1 Archie & Press badass postcard, 8 crystals, 2 necklaces, 1 bluetooth speaker and 1 warrior mask…. And with that my radiotherapy is over and out as quickly as it started. I […]
Yesterday I had my first radiotherapy treatment of which the anticipation of how it would go and how I would feel for the 6 week duration, was extreme. Last week my anxiety was at one of the highest it’s ever been and I completely convinced myself that those 6 weeks were going to written off […]
It’s pretty difficult to describe these last few days. The chemotherapy itself has been completely and utterly ok as so far I’ve had no side effects I can tell of. Please remember however I am only on day 4 and these things are mostly cumulative over however many cycles/months you are doing so we really […]
I’ve only just realised that I haven’t written since my last post and whilst there have been a few individual thank yous I have largely tried to be really present (pun intended) during this festive period which unfortunately means, as well as the usual general chaos, I haven’t had time to reply to all the […]