I’m writing this shattered from what seems like an endless day of preparing for the appointment, trying to listen and take in every word from our Neurosurgeon and then talking and processing it all with Danny after so I might not sound particularly spritely but I’m actually in a really good place. There were several […]
To think I’ve been living in my new world for a whole month now is baffling. I’m not going to lie I really do miss elements of my old world – the freedom, the independence, the responsibility, the ability to put some order to the chaos and most of all the ability to look after […]
…is about as much French I have ever been able to say despite learning it for 5 years at school but there is nothing better fitted for the beautiful hosts of the apartment we have just rented in Yviers near Bordeaux, Carol and Ian. They were more than wonderful and their place was perfect. Obviously […]
Yesterday was horrific. Truly awful. Up there with one of the worst times of my life. Well apart from the tiny bits when we actually got to celebrate Danny’s birthday. Before I explain more I should say one thing I probably wouldn’t read this if you’re really claustrophobic and/or have an MRI coming up. Claustrophobia […]
Clearly at the moment my judgements are off. I don’t trust anything, especially my own mind and I am constantly looking to family and friends to reassure and validate what has just happened in the moment before. The vast majority of time this is a straight forward eye contact, nothing unusual here reassuring look. A […]
It’s his birthday and with everything going on I’ve been a bit crap at sorting out much apart from taking him to France this weekend. Ok, so rereading that it sounds a bit silly but in terms of today, his actual birthday, I haven’t even given him a card yet or made him a birthday […]
The last few days have felt a little like life is getting back to ‘normal’. Not in the sense of how I see, feel or am – I’m still living in this new world but in the sense of life just continuing and all the activities that need to happen to push it forward. Truth […]
Last night, just for a couple of hours, was the first time I was alone in the house during the stillness of the night. I had to literally boot my parents out the door with some heavy emotional blackmail of letting me be slightly independent and trusting that I would call at the slightest wiff […]
I thought it might be worth an update on Buttercup’s effects. I was finally told by the doctors a few days ago that my new world is most likely due to the tumour rather than the drugs or the seizures I had at the beginning as my ‘symptoms’ haven’t changed and I’m now off all […]
I saw my 2 step sons for the first time yesterday since all this has happened. They are 7 and 11 and were told bits and bobs since the very beginning although obviously there are certain elements they don’t need to know. So what do you say? So far I’d left it completely to Danny […]