Today I Surrender.
I surrender to the fear. I’m still in my pyjamas and in the comfort of my bed, allowing, welcoming even, the tears and the pain.
I’m alone but right now that’s what I need. Quiet to hear my darkest thoughts and space to hold them without judgment.
It’s difficult when you have no symptoms and a life to lead to find a place and time to do this. Some expect you to crumble from the first moment but, for me at least, when life has to go on, when I want it to go on, it’s only when there’s stillness does the impact release.
I knew it was coming, that it was being supressed but knowing what it needed, I just couldn’t give it the time. But today I know I have to.
I don’t have answers, I can only surrender and accept. I’ve allowed each feeling to be recognised, heard and shake my body with grief but I’ve also reassured myself that it’s ok. It’s ok to be scared, it’s ok to be sad, it’s ok to mourn a life that could have been. It’s ok.
So today I surrender and tomorrow I will see what the day brings. It may be the same but it may also be full of laughter. And that’s ok too.
Sending you the biggest hugs and all my love. Oxox
Sending so much love and strength to you hon. Big, BIG love xx
I love you so much! Sending all my Ella hugs xoxo
Oh, my lovely. I’m so sorry, but everything you’re feeling is ok. One day at a time. Sending you lots of love, hugs and prayers
this is beautiful to read, I too am 18 months into my glioblastoma journey and just had 2nd surgery and have helt all of the above, thankyou for sharing ❤️
Sending all my love, hugs & every possible positive thought to you Cords. You are in my thoughts such a lot, even though I haven’t seen you for years. You are a brave & beautiful warrior.! Jane xxxxx💛💜❤️
Sending love and blessings to you in this mighty challenge you are facing. You are an inspiration. Helen x
You were so amazing to me when I reached out to you with a very dear friend going through the Glio journey, my thoughts, love and prayers are with you and your family. Xxx
I am with you all the way and it will always be laughter, hope and love and we will never give up.We are warriors and our courage is immense. I”ll hold you tight and I will never let you go. Eres un pedacito de mi corazón y siempre estaré con trigo, siempre!
Te quiero, amor de mi alma!!
You were so amazing to me when I reached out to you with a very dear friend going through the Glio journey, my thoughts, love and prayers are with you and your family. Xxx
Cordelia I am so sorry. I think of you so often and wonder how you are doing. Sending much love to you over the garden wall xxxx
Sending you all the love, darling x
“In the midst of darkness, light persists.” – Mahatma Gandhi
Sending so, so much love to you. It really takes a lot of courage to sit with these feelings. Really, so much love to you. I am here for you always. Xx
Tomorrow is another day love. You are so brave but you are allowed to be scared also. Have quiet ‘you time’ when you feel like it that’s ok. You are in my thoughts and prayers daily. 🙏🙏🙏❤️
Beautiful, brave words. Thinking of you Cords and sending so much love and light x x x
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Sending love, Alex x