So grab your axe, your sword, your superhero powers and most importantly your energy to get ready because on the morning of Tuesday 8thJanuary 2019 the war will commence. My first treatment is chemotherapy (TMZ) which I start taking tomorrow (8thJan) at home through tablets that come in a prescription box that honestly look like […]
I’ve only just realised that I haven’t written since my last post and whilst there have been a few individual thank yous I have largely tried to be really present (pun intended) during this festive period which unfortunately means, as well as the usual general chaos, I haven’t had time to reply to all the […]
This morning (5.30am) I am writing to send out a bat signal, a Warrior cry, a call to the tribe. This last week has, despite my absolute best soul-searching efforts been the hardest of the hardest. Every morning without fail I have woken up and faced it all again. And in these actual dark winter […]
I wish, I really really really wish from every fibre in my scarred and broken body that I could be writing to say that after the traumatic wait we finally have had some good news following the results that were given to us yesterday. But for now at least, it’s very sadly for myself, my […]
This weekend after the trauma of waiting for my results over the last few weeks I got back in contact with my Hoffman Process classmates after having not been in touch with them for a couple of years (no other reason than all our usual busy lives) to tell them what I’m going through and […]
So here’s the thing, sometimes I’m ok and sometimes I’m not. For me it’s a lot easier to write when I’m feeling strong and yet the most cathartic when I’m feeling rubbish. The last week and a half since my last post have mostly been the latter which has been gutting as I really thought […]
Without trying to be too profound, it’s a funny thing control because any therapist, self-help book or mental health professional will (or should) tell you that you are in control of your own state of happiness. I have personally tried to remember this ever since I started my own journey of enlightened self-help a few […]
Today I had my stiches out. The build-up fear was pretty bad as the worst pain I’ve ever experienced was having stiches pulled out of my belly button (laparoscopy when I was younger) so thinking of them coming out of my current fragile egg head was not something I easily able to take my mind […]
Some people call it performance coaching, other’s call it a pep talk, some visualising success, others a battlefield dance and in New Zealand they have the Haka. Whatever you call it on the day of the operation I firstly organised for Kim from www.happyheads.me to come to […]
Yesterday I was released and am now in the gorgeous care of my own home on my own sofa and my own cheeky monkey to snuggle. Dr Lolita picked me up, slightly concerned with my new look but after making sure she put a few stickers on my face to patch me up she was […]