So here’s the thing, sometimes I’m ok and sometimes I’m not. For me it’s a lot easier to write when I’m feeling strong and yet the most cathartic when I’m feeling rubbish. The last week and a half since my last post have mostly been the latter which has been gutting as I really thought […]

Without trying to be too profound, it’s a funny thing control because any therapist, self-help book or mental health professional will (or should) tell you that you are in control of your own state of happiness. I have personally tried to remember this ever since I started my own journey of enlightened self-help a few […]

Today I had my stiches out. The build-up fear was pretty bad as the worst pain I’ve ever experienced was having stiches pulled out of my belly button (laparoscopy when I was younger) so thinking of them coming out of my current fragile egg head was not something I easily able to take my mind […]

                  Some people call it performance coaching, other’s call it a pep talk, some visualising success, others a battlefield dance and in New Zealand they have the Haka. Whatever you call it on the day of the operation I firstly organised for Kim from www.happyheads.me to come to […]

Yesterday I was released and am now in the gorgeous care of my own home on my own sofa and my own cheeky monkey to snuggle. Dr Lolita picked me up, slightly concerned with my new look but after making sure she put a few stickers on my face to patch me up she was […]

I realised that I didn’t answer yesterday probably what most people what to know, which is whether my world is yet again different (1), has gone back to normal pre-tumour-symptom days (2) or has stayed the same as just before I had the operation (3). To be completely honest the answer is unfortunately not clear […]

Yeah ok, so that post title is a little misleading. Right now I feel like I haven’t slept for days despite the fact that’s pretty much all I’ve been doing for the 3 days post surgery. Apparently when you’ve been under general aesthetic for that many hours it takes a long time to shake it […]

Coco is now up on wards She has had a good night, a tiny bit disorientated from the medication but Danny was there to comfort her and help her fall back to the land of nod. She is most definitely all there, as asking lots of questions about Loli and wanting to know if her […]

All day I have had that niggle in my mind that I have forgotten to check something. Maybe for you it has been the inability to focus, perhaps feeling like you need to take really deep breaths (all the time), or constantly check your phone for the update of all updates. Cords is up and […]

Don’t get me wrong I am fully aware there are only so many times I can bang on about this blooming operation but it seems as I’m just about to go in I may as well demand one last wish. The other day you may have seen I wrote a list for the brilliant Clemmie […]