I’ve been waiting, hoping, believing but also doubting whether I’d get to this day since almost the moment I was told I probably wouldn’t. In the cancer world the big milestone to reach is normally 5 years but for Glioblastoma that’s pretty unimaginable.
My MRI this week was again completely clear as it has been since the last little bit of tumour vanished from sight over 2 years ago.
An extraordinary responder. That’s what one of my Doctors calls me. All I know is that I’m very very lucky.
I woke up this morning and after taking a moment to sit and listen, the gentle tears came like they do most days I find a moment to take stock. They’re not tears of sadness. They’re tears of beauty.
Unlike the last two years of anniversaries where the week leading up to this day has been filled with comparing my life from ‘before’ to ‘after’, today feels different. I’ve got accustomed to my new world and to be honest it’s really not dissimilar to anyone else my age with a young child.
I’m still reflecting but now in a way of amasement of all the things I didn’t know I’d ever have or see again in those early days of diagnosis. My daughter starting school, another Christmas, another year watching the seasons show the beauty of the world around us, the ability to spend whole days not thinking about my cancer, being able to plan months, years even, in advance, allowing myself to dream about the future, working and driving again, accepting that life will be what it will be and that anything can happen to anyone so why should I live my life in any more fear than the next person.
My life is far from perfect, I have deep frustrations and other worries but they’re no worse than what other people in this world are going through at the moment. And they can’t overshadow the significance of where I am.
This day has become to me a day of gratitude. A day to remember everything I am thankful for, especially waking up alive.
I would love to think people might read this and take a moment today to think of any small beauty in their life they’re grateful for too. It’s given me 3 years of joy. How lucky am I.
Hurray. So great to read this xx
Wonderful,brilliant, incredible & fantastic news Cords!! ? so happy for you! Sending much love xxx
Lovely to read this Cords! The world is lucky to have you too. Xxxx
So happy Coco and sending love to you all! oxoxo
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Wonderful to read your progress. So happy Coco and sending love to you all! oxoxo
Hi Cordelia. Reading your post is like seeing the first bright flowers of spring. So lovely, so positive And so truthful. May you have many more days of gratitude, love & light ??
Thank you for sharing, and it is so great to hear positive story, it gives us hope to fight.. Wish you many more years and beautiful moments.
I have often thought of you and was praying you were ok. So so pleased to read your update. Enjoy every moment of your life with your beautiful daughter. Much love and sending you good wishes Coco. Xxx
What wonderful news.
Thank you so much for sharing your journey with us and for your inspiration to live life better.
Joining you in gratitude